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For Everest / Carb on Carb split

by Square of Opposition Records

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there has to be a reason i stopped feeling anything embarrassing myself but I'm still counting ceiling tiles to pass the days, nothing can stay i drank the whole bottle, i forgot your birthday and that's alright i watched you undress, but holding hands is meaningless i waited all winter but you moved in together i can't wait patiently i've drawn our names in concrete you promise me one day so i'll cross my fingers tightly you never know how fucked up you are until you're all alone looking at yourself in the bathroom mirror cup my hands around the light, a house made of wax count back from 10 and try to relax i'll be alright so close your eyes and take a deep breath it's a jump from a ledge not a push off a cliff we hit traffic on the turnpike and we took turns driving all night you drove head first into my bed but i didn't crash until you left clenching my fists and grinding my jawbone when i'm with you i'm learning to be alone
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this is a quiet attempt at leaving while you sleep i'm easy and unnoticed, you won't miss a thing just so you know, i'll never grow any older with you (unless I have to) we outgrew our clothes, taller and fatter we're just piles of dust, none of it really matters my mouth worries, and it will worry you my tongue is hurried, tying knots it can't undo i will eat my words, but i will slur them first sometimes being held feels just like being hurt i'm not afraid of anything but dying and being left behind but i'm ashamed, i wish we had more time we used to compare scars under the blankets now we hide on separate sides of the bed the bodies we had were too small for what we felt now they're hollowed out, we've got nothing left my mouth worries, and it will worry you my tongue is hurried, tying knots it can't undo i will eat my words, but I will slur them first sometimes being held feels just like being hurt i hold you down, i let you sink like a body in the lake when I let go, you will float like vowels stuck inside your throat you bite your tongue to swallow blood it tastes like love, but it is not
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i’m trying trying hard to fix aspects of my life I’m unsatisfied with tell me a story, distract me from this procrastination is my only success feeling useless again not doing anything i’m not trying at all I’m putting it off too much time on my hands, I’m stuffed not enough, too much too much time on my hands, I’m fucked guess I’m fine no I’m not I’m taking the credit for successes you’ve worked hard for hours lost i didn’t help at all feeling useless again not doing anything i’m not trying at all I’m putting it off i’m a mess between tours trying hard to ignore the fact that i can’t deal
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of her sheltered youth she tells me everything she never knew about the world about men i hope that i’ll be able to dance as proudly and deliberately as her i hope that i’ll be able to laugh as proudly and deliberately as her i laugh when she writes on my band’s page, how proud she is she wants me to sing at her 80th birthday if not, her funeral i’ll make sure that I’m there before that that i don’t show up, hungover again late fresh off a plane, walking foolishly towards her empty casket i hope that i’ll be able to laugh as proudly and deliberately as her i took her for granted she cleaned my teenage room she never said much i try not to think about her i wish that i had the chance to talk to her as an adult i really sucked as a preteen i wish that i had the chance to talk to her as an adult i really sucked as a preteen as a preteen we’ll never know she refused to tell we urged her to write down our family tree on her deathbed

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released April 18, 2017

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